“SELF-REALIZATION IS COMPLETELY FREEING, IN THE SENSE THAT YOU COME TO SEE THAT YOU – CONSCIOUSNESS – ARE ALREADY FREE.“
Martyn is a spiritual teacher and mentor whose aim is to help people discover their true nature and essential freedom as boundless, ever-present awareness. He draws on many years of study and practice in different traditions and teachings, but ultimately shares from his own direct experience of the nondual nature of reality.
I was always a spiritual seeker. In my youth I was drawn to all things spiritual, religious, esoteric or philosophical – anything that spoke to the mystery of life. My interests were very eclectic, but in my late teens I discovered the teachings of Buddhism and the concept of spiritual Enlightenment which became the focus of my search.
In my early twenties an intractable dilemma in my personal life triggered a profound insight into the non-conceptual nature of the Truth, and demonstrated the limitations of my intellectual pursuit of knowledge. Shortly after this I began what turned out to be a 20+ year practice of Transcendental Meditation and marked a period of intense spiritual growth.
Throughout these years I attended countless retreats and lived, worked, and studied at meditation centres and ashrams, essentially devoting my life to the pursuit of spiritual knowledge and experience. This was a spiritually fruitful time for me, bringing about ever-deepening understanding and insight about my essential nature and the nature of reality. Even so, I still experienced periods of depression and was afflicted by feelings of incompleteness.
In the mid 2000s I found myself being strongly drawn to Satsang and Self-inquiry which I felt were more direct approaches. I was fortunate enough to find and recognize teachings and teachers such as Ramana Maharshi, Nisargadatta Maharaj, Papaji, Ramesh Balsekar, and many more who spoke to my intuitive understanding. With the help of contemporary awakened teachers such Adyashanti, Mooji, Pema Chodron, Gangaji, Wayne Liquorman, and Ramaji, remaining falsehoods fell away and I increasingly came to recognize the ubiquity of awareness in each and every moment.
But in early 2015 after decades of spiritual seeking, I came to understand that despite it all I was powerless to bring about my own liberation. I found myself in a place of profound but unsatisfactory surrender.
At this time, after a RASA transmission with Ramaji, my deepening intuitive understanding dawned as abiding recognition. Namely, that there is no doer and the spiritual seeker I took myself to be didn’t actually exist as a separate being, and that I am awareness itself, in which and from which all forms and phenomena arise. And so, the seeking ended along with the seeker.