If you are insistent or even desirous of keeping your life exactly as it is then it’s probably best not to embark on the spiritual path. Better to just sit tight and tolerate your afflictive mind than to “give it all to God” or “surrender everything to the Self”. Because that’s what’s required, a single-minded approach to the discovery of your true nature with nothing held back.
Awakening is kenotic, the emptying-out of the small egoic self leaving only the boundless true nature running the show. It’s not for the faint-hearted.
